Wantlove - I have had 3 telephone conversations with my h in the last 5 months, two of which were fairly abusive, by him. And he has been gone now for 2 years and 4 months. We have had little contact during this time. And it isn't much fun, I can attest to that.
Sorry for that impression - NEVER my intent. i just cannot believe it has been so long w/o contact. We never went more than a couple of hours without a call "just to say hello", whikle we were at work, etc. 6 motnhs, never in a million years would i have imagined this. Guess I just don;t matter. I know nothing of his life, even where he lives - and apparently, that suits him just fine.
I don't want to minimize your situation, but I would give my right arm to have had those calls..... I've just been lifted totally off the face of the earth, in his mind.....
Wantlove....just remember that you have no idea what God is doing in his life right now...he may suddenly show up or call you one day....
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
I keep telling myself that, but the things I keep telling myself start to sound like a delusional, little, stupid girl in complete denial of what is slapping her in the face....y'know?
Wantlove, please don't take this the wrong way...but sometimes I get the feeling that when you're here, there is no way to comfort or help you...you tell those which situations are not alike that they can't understand...and those who try to help you get very little respect from you.
I don't get you...you're so different from many of us here. You don't seem willing to take in what we all try to take in...this is about accepting that we are no longer in control of someone else's life...that we are only in control of our own life.
It is about regaining the joy and pride in OUR life, and the fullfillment of OUR life...no matter what anyone else's life is doing... I get the feeling you 'fill' your life with 'to-do's' but they don't fulfill you...they don't MAKE you, they are not YOU, they are just a façade...is this so ?
I really hope I haven't hurt you with what I had to say...please understand that I am concerned about you.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
I know what you mean....if you believe however, just remember that it is not GOD telling you that you are the stupid little girl....keep believing...
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
