I have just read through your whole story. I never post on anyone elses sitch as I feel totally unqualified to offer any advice. However, you & I are on the same page with our emotions and feelings.
Our H's sound as if they are experiencing the same issues ie wanting to come and go as they please, not communicate, life like single men, no responsibilities blah blah blah
I too feel abandoned and not ready to give up hope and give up on my marriage.
Unlike you I have been having a lot of contact with my H, which gives me mixed signals.
I hope your C session goes well tomorrow. Can you let H and C lead the session and do most of the talking and take it from there? Maybe jot a few points down that you would really like to mention?
I'm not in C or taking any meds, but I am seriously considering it.
X Dis
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07