He definitely has low self-esteem, I guess he always has in a way. I think kind of like your H Michelle(or at least what I think about your H) that he feels inferior to me in a way. I think a part of him has always felt he wasn't good enough for me and didnt know what I saw in him. I do feel like he is looking for reassurance, which is why I brought up the R in the first place yesterday. I wanted to let him know that I AM willing to wait. I don't know how long, but that is just something I would have to play by ear. I guess I will have to find another way to reassure him.
I know he is extrememly stressed about the job and money right now. I am trying not to add to that stress. I am glad he is taking the ADs, but I think when he runs out he will have to go back to the doctor to get a new prescription...and who knows if he will do that. He is not going to counseling, we went when this all first started. We went together and he went some by himself. I haven't brought it up again other than when he was talking about reconciling.
I don't feel as bad today as I felt yesterday. Michelle, I have to confess.....I opened the phone bill, actually there were two of them. I did that last night. There were a couple of calls to OW and a couple of texts, but NOTHING like it was. Hopefully all of that will sizzle out soon. I can't let his relationship with her drive my feelings. I keep telling myself that he moved away from her and chances are he will never see her again.
You are right about the dating thing. I will just have to look at it that way and take things slow.
