Grace, Thanks for the hug. I need all I can get right now as I sure ain't gettin' 'em from home.
She told me that she was beginning to feel close to me again and feel positive and then I hurt her with that interaction. I violated her and she no longer trusts me and is no longer in love with me.
She claims she was having a "sexual dream" and wasn't inviting me to participate. However, she was the one who invited me into the room in the 1st place.
I agree there is guilt and I also think it is a defense for her to avoid working on us.
By the way, when she told me she was having a sexual dream, I asked "were you dreaming about screwing the OM?" Now she's again angry at me that I would 1)instantly assume that her sex dream was about the OM, and 2) that I would have the nerve to ask her who she was dreaming of because that is "private" info.
So, my asking her about her dream coupled with my "violation" has put me back on the bad list.
Oh, well. Another test to pass and hurdle to clear, I guess.
