You know Frank, I stopped posting to you for a while because you seemed to 'know' everything, but I still read your posts and the replies. Nothing seems to change. You get caught up in the minute details of it all but seem to not move on or achieve much. Here you are still banging on about the W and wrongs done to you in the past by her and by others in business.
Whilst I can understand the injustice in all this, it really is not helping you deal with the things you need to focus on.
Frank, when are you going to stand still and stop reacting in a frightened way and start focusing on the job in hand - namely saving Frank? At the moment you seem hell bent on the destruction of Frank.
Saffie,
Regarding the person who E_mailed me I actually am giving it zero thought. I just found it interesting that, during a time where I am looking at the past wounds that have not been healed, someone contacts me from that very past. I already know what I'm going to reply, I'm going to be polite, tell him I don't know where he is and give him the e-mail of some other ex employees of the company that he can ask for info. Simple.
As far as the analysys of W's lack of dealing with issues, and the relationship with her 'friend', well that has been helping me to understand how messed up the dynamic has been in all her relationships, not just in ours. Remember, I have been making 'excuses' for her for years and I need to erase that need by seeing REALITY now. Being logical, the more I sort it out the more I guess I can 'justify' letting her go and not feeling guilty.
BUT, that doesn't mean that you aren't also right. All of this keeps picking at the wounds I have, and it keeps bringing me out of 'logical' and into 'emotion'. FaithIsBelieving called me this morning and went over this 10 times.
As he said to me "how much more 'analysis and understanding' do you need? It is what it is. When do you decide that it's better to say goodbye now?"
I know what 'saving Frank' should look like, it's very hard to ignore W when I live with her.
So, today I'm going to our church, probably alone since 'P' is still here. That will be good for me.
Then, I am spending the rest of the day working on a programming project that I need to finish. That way I can feel some accomplishment.
