well, all hell broke loose, it is over and done

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Hey Cat, ditto to what all are telling you. And...

what if he falls in lov w/someone else,

What if you fall in love with someone else? He will probably have that fear, or you might have that fear (hope?). It is a possibility. Especially as you are able to relax and enjoy your life again, you'll be even more attractive. Something to think about, and maybe prepare for.