I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Had lunch yesterday with a mutual friend. This is someone that we used to vacation with as couples. Her H and my H worked together for years and her job is also connected to theirs and so I hadn't made contact on the theory that they were "his" friends and I should leave it alone. But, she reached out to me and I was so pleased that she did. I was anxious, though, about seeing her because I thought that she probably knows more than I do about what is going on in my H's life. There were 2 problems with that. One is how hard it is to be in the dark. I know nothing about what he is doing or how he spends his time. I just know that he appears to be content to have zero contact and assume that he doesn't miss me at all. The other problem is that I don't quite trust that there is no OW and I didn't want to get bad news from my friend. But, we had a nice talk. She mentioned a couple of times how sorry she felt for me when she heard what was happening between me and H, but I didn't press for details on what she was told and she didn't offer any. I didn't share much detail, but I did tell her that I am trying to DB by giving H time and space to work through his issues. She understood and that was great.