Shades, Don't compare yourself to OW. I know how easy it is to do... I did it all the time (and still do from time to time). But those comparisons are made up in our heads. We really don't know anythign about OW and can't compare. Not only that, there is no use in doing so.
Having met you, I think you are an absolutely beautiful woman - inside and out. You are a blonde, skinny little thing. You are catch, mama. And more importantly, you're a GREAT mother and a wonderful friend. You're fun to be around. You have a good set of morals and values. You have your priorities in line.
You've got it goin on, baby. So, don't you compare yourself to OW... There's no way that seh even comes close to what you have to offer.
Now, about the way your H treats the kids... forget about it. You have absolutely no control over what kind of dad he chooses to be. You can only minimize the impact it may have on your girls. And that is exactly what you're doing.
You are fabu! Remember that!
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
