How do I begin piecing??

[MichelleLT]

Well, despite his words, his actions are definitely promising. Sounds like he's acknowledging that a lot of this is his personal crisis and not about you. It's good he's not laying a lot of blame on you. And I hope you have a wonderful time for your birthday.

I totally understand the fear of replapse. I struggle with it even now, wondering WTF I'm even waiting around for if maybe people aren't right and I shouldn't be putting up with H's crap. Only you can know if you are done, but there are so many steps in the right direction right now. I think the trust is something that will be slow in coming, but just because it's not there now doesn't mean it won't ever be. Just try and keep some perspective - you are feeling a lot of emotions you have either suppressed or thought you had moved past. That doesn't mean you won't feel better in a week or two. As for the R talk - stop doing the things that hurt lol. Maybe you should hold off any more talks until you're a little more sure you'll like the resulting discussion.

(((klm)))