I too pray for the chance to treat my H the way I should have. In my case I let my own fear (b/c of his anger and inability to talk to me) take over when I should have been proactive about dealing with what was in front of me.

I grew up without ever knowing my father, so I had a fear of my kids not having theirs. Not helpful.

Thanks right back to you for being my friend and such an awesome deep thinker. You make me look at things in such a different way. I am so grateful for the chance to learn so much here. Too bad it's under the circumstances, but as another friend of mine says, "everything is as it should be, you have to have faith."