I feel so defeated....

[Starshyne]

After being away for a week, I come back home. He tells me that he wants to end the "friendship" with the OW and even though he knows it will be a hard thing to do, he knows he should do it. Alright....this sounds good. But I know better than to believe what he tells me.

And sure enough, he never came home from work. I assume he is with her and won't be home at all tonight. And while my mind knew this would happen, for some reason my heart was hoping otherwise. I just feel so defeated and alone. So instead of calling him right now and telling him how lonely I am feeling, I am writing this here.

Sara