How do you see that things have changed for your H since the bomb?
Good question, UD. I'd say the biggest change has been the recent admission that he knows what he's doing is wrong. Other than that, I haven't seen any changes in his actions.
He's still: avoiding facing his problems, spending very little time with the kids (even less now than before), not moving any closer to a D, living with ogre, delusional about his financial situation, not admitting anything about ogre to me or family, not telling me where he lives. In general, he's still running.
Those are just the things off the top of my head.
I think seeing them together in a very public place - one of 'our' places - has given me a bit of a reality check. I feel finished with this. I don't want to do this anymore. I've taken down the pictures of H and I leaving only one of him, S5 and I up. And I've deleted all his numbers and messages - even the nice ones - from my phone. I'm sure I'm acting out of anger mostly. Maybe it'll pass. But I'm actually hoping that this is going to be it for me. Having compassion for H, being understanding and keeping the door open has gotten me nowhere over the past year and a half. It's time for a change.
