I wish I could she is in the hospital still.

sent a card today to the house.

i think my bitterness is due to no knowing if ow is with him.
if he doesn't want to talk to me it makes me think she is.

he has been open with me about things and we talk about the kids and well unless he is not talking for fear of crying on the phone with me.

talked to my mom tonight and she was no support at all.
she never has been so not sure why I called. .... she is painting her living room AGAIN so gosh I interupted her.

going to have a glass of wine and watch tv and take my puppy out a dozen times...
oh so much fun I can't stand it...

I am depressed and need to snap out of it NOW

m24 yrs
h 50
me 47
s 21
s 17
left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06
still gone.............