If you feel shame then it is your internal compass telling you, you are off course. You may need to change course! Either that or get your compass adjusted !
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Found it to be the worst thing you could ever do to a human. Never could imagine how someone could ever get to that place. Until I was faced with it. Which is why I have been kind of MIA for awhile. I feel so many emotions running in my head right now. With my husband having the lower sex drive I have felt so lonely, so unattractive, so not wanted at all. I feel loved when we have sex and miss having that with a man.
Totally with you here. Same thing with me except it was the W who was low desire for so long, then left and had a sexual affair. How nutty is that? Turns out that having low desire makes them feel inadequate, hence they look for validation somewhere else. Turns out a stale sex life is bad for your marriage. go figure!
I don't feel unattractive, but I do feel lonely, locked out of something I love. I don't just want to have sex, I want a relationship again, including sex.
Someday it will happen. For now I am standing for my marriage.
W actually told me she would LIKE IT if I were to go have an affair. She suggested it. She told me "I had my chance, maybe you should do it, too." Weird. She was totally serious. Not joking or sarcastic at all. I think she would like me to do it, to ease her guilt. To even the score. No way that makes sense to me. No way.
I think she needs to forgive herself. anyway...
M 43 S14 S13 D11 D7 Divorce final: Jan 2009 Making it up as I go....
