climb out of that hole!!! You are alive, you are not dying of some fatal disease (or at least you haven't mentioned you are)... and life is an ADVENTURE. Climb out of that hole and take a look around!!!
You know, I used to do a ton of things I liked. I used to ride all the time with that former friend of mine, we were regulars. And still riding together and hanging out all during the deception. And of course I got fulfillment from my job, from friends. Then we moved across the country from my friends and siblings. I moved from my house into a new smaller, yet much more expensive house. Later I lost my wife, got locked out of the new house, and can't see my kids any more.
I can go on bike rides now but it all seems pretty shallow. The things that are important to me were taken from me, not honestly at all, and it sure does feel pretty unfair.
I hate the feeling of being a victim, but I can't shake it.
M 43 S14 S13 D11 D7 Divorce final: Jan 2009 Making it up as I go....
