Confessions of a Supermom - JennyF's 4th thread

[JennyF]

I had a great night with my friend.
She is able to offer so much insight about what she went through and both of us are still amazed at how similar our situations are. Especially when I told her about how many of the S's on these boards all follow the same patterns.

H spent a couple hours with S (and still had D) while I went grocery shopping. I cried again when I dropped him off.
You know it's now that I mind leaving him so much (although it is part of it), it is more that when I leave him with H...it is just confirms that my family is no longer one unit.
This right now is killing me the most.
When he brought them both back, D was really upset that he was leaving. She is getting more and more upset and is constantly saying I want my Daddy to come home. She is still to young to quite understand that he just doesn't live her...she really does mean she wants him to be here with her. But it is so hard to hear her say it and not say, "I know Sweetie, I want him to come home too". But I can't do that.
I keep praying that God will help my D through this because I'm doing the very best I can and it just doesn't feel like enough. It is so unfair to her. Why can't H see that?
I pray daily that he will see it, that he will see that his kids are worth some effort and that what he is giving up is not worth what he is gaining.
I'm rambling again...just had to vent.
J~