W not comfortable with me moving back yet but stated she would like me to if we can do it 'right'.
W wants to try MC again.
W likes what I'm doing but afraid that it will be short lived and that I'll become 'complacent'. I told her I see why she would think that based on my past but I'm not like that anymore, nor do I want to be.
These are all very positive. You are doing well. Of course she does not trust you yet. She is following the same rules we on this BB follow: believe nothing they say and only half of what they do.
She is watching. She has not quit on you yet. Good.
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IMHO, W is still living in the past & in fear of the future. I'm trying to live in the 'here & now'. I'm tired of beating myself up for all the mistakes I made in the past, trying to fix them & taking all the blame in this. I admitted what I did wrong, I've learned from my errors, & I'm trying to move on and be a better person. I want W to do the same but I understand she needs to do things at her own pace. I can't force her to forgive or have faith & trust in me. Either she will come around & decide she wants me or she won't, I've already forgiven her & finally myself. I am much clearer now on what will make me happy in life.
Great analysis and right on the money. Accept your responsibility here, correct what is in your control, and don't try to control what you cannot. Especially her "slow" pace. But from this post - you know all that already.
Good job! I can use a success story. Keep going and this will be it.
