In fact -- and I didn't see this at the time, but in retrospect -- things really started to turn around with us when I started actually *living* like I believed and accepted that he was Other, not just paying lip service to a pretty idea.
In fact (and let this be a lesson to me), it turned out to be much less scary than I ever could have imagined. I just needed to get to the point where I had enough faith to get the hell out of the director's chair. Now we each have lovely little trailers with stars on the doors and a whole set to improvise in; much much better.
"Show me a completely smooth operation and I'll show you someone who's covering mistakes. Real boats rock." -- Frank Herbert
