I called his phone tonight thinking he might be on his way to see here and in the airport. He did not answer so I left a msg. telling him that d saw the bulletin on cousins myspace and that she was concerned. I told him I was thinking of her and would pray for her and asked him if he was ok? and then said I just want to make sure you are ok.
nothing... the kids have not heard from him either.
weird feeling inside me tonight.
I can't call her for she cut the kids and I out of the family when H left. Even their cousin does not speak to them. So sad.
My BIL and I use to be able to talk so somehow I might figure out how to get in touch with him. Might just send him a note telling him that I am thinking of them and see what happens.
Life as we know it can vanish in a moments time... no warning nothing..... so we must life every day to its fullest
if only I could live that way .... so hard when in limboland.
my mind is racing with all sorts of thoughts tonight for the 1st time in a long time. I had gotten to the point of not wanting H back yet not wanting OW to have him. I was not calling him or emailing him... now suddenly all that has blown away...
I just want to give him a hug
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
