everyone here is right, and actually Login is right as well in where he contradicted me (see what happens when I don't edit!): your H wasn't (isn't) trying to treat you like sh!t; he wasn't (isn't) thinking of you at ALL.
- same with my H, and with all spouses who have an A, i think. we are the last thing on their minds, and that's almost worse in a way.
anyway, everyone here is brilliant and insightful and dead on.
cat, i really don't see anything moving like it needs to while you still are under the same roof. i could be wrong, i often am, but this situation is toxic, IMO, and you need clean air to breathe for now.
again, i may be wrong, but i vote for separation of some sort here.
{{{{cat}}}}
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3