I feel that way too. I really feel like it may be fear of rejection. But it has been ingrained in me now not to take the initiative...so now I am scared to do that. Maybe he does need to know that I want to work on this. Maybe he is wondering what is going through MY mind. I just hate all this, it feels like such a game....I just want to act the way I WANT to act around H without being so worried about his reaction. ...Ok, enough whining.
A part of me wants to call him to go out and do something tonight...the other part of me just wants to go out and have fun without him so I don't have to be on eggshells. I had a really bad day at work yesterday and today and now just want to relax this weekend. Who knows what I will do. Maybe I will wait and call tomorrow.
