starting to feel taken for grantide again...h is getting more and more wrapped up in work...work and the yard work taking presidence over our r and his time with the kids...it's really of little consolation that he say's he's getting depressed about us going away...that he's not spending as much time with us etc...if he didn't just say it but actually did something about it, perhaps then he wouldn't be getting depressed...sure work has to get done..the yard work needs to be done..but honestly every night??? does he really have to spend every night out in the yard til 8? does he have to spend all day and evening on sunday out there too?? can he not take a day off?? can he not leave something for tommorow and say tonight I will not work in the yard..tonight I will come home and play fumble with son..tonight I will give dd a bath and read her a bed time story..tonight I will skip the yard work so that I might have some energy to devote toward w...
naaaa, instead just keep working in the yard (btw I help when I can...have a blister on my hand from raking piles to possible make his time out there shorter, infact today started raking the lawn and attempted to start the blower to clean it off so he doesn't have to but couldn't start it)
nothing has changed in that regard...h still puts work first whether it be work at work or work at home...yes somethings need to be important...but there has to be a line...once again it seems I'm trying to do things to help him that might cut him some slack so that he can spend more time with at least the kids...but no matter how much I get done for him he still finds other things to keep himself to busy for us...
maybe it's a good thing that the kids and I will be gone for a week...maybe then he will realize what he's missing in not making the time for us...when he can't just go into their rooms and kiss their sleeping heads...
h just doesn't have time to be a h or a daddy...he's to busy..he will say it's just the start of the season...it's the spring..once I get through this month things will settle down...do you know how many years I've been hearing that??? it goes from once we get settled into this season..to next year will be easier...to the winters comming.....to well what about the two weeks in aruba...to I'm doing this for you...
gee thanks....you're doing this for me?? so the kids and I can have stuff??? but not you??? thanks alot!!
LL getting depressed and feeling shoved asside!! again!! tell me again why I wasn't the one to have an a and leave???
