That's about the best self-administered 2X4 I've seen.
Now, make it so. After reading all of this, I'd still lean towards asking her out and showing her what being with you would/could be like.
Also, it is a brand new R. What you had with your W is dead and gone. As we've written to each other before, if that R had been strong, you wouldn't be here.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY