I will get easier! I still have my moments, but they are certainly less often, and less intense. I think for me, I have in my mind decided that the roller coaster has stopped, meaning right now I believe he is truly with me again. But if there is ever a "next time" that will be it, over. So I have just decided to try and sit back and relax and enjoy what I have now.
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!