LL,
Thoughts of the OW do come to mind.

They usually are you screwed up your life big time. You have nothing to show for it. The barfly saw a good secure thing to get her through her old age. Little did she know my H does not part with what is his very easily.

I kinda look at this OW as a sick thought pattern for H linked to his past of looking for his mother. Mother had similar characterists as his OW. She would spread her legs for any man, she didnt have a mother but she did have a grandmother that liked him. When H found his mother she rejected him amd wouldnt tell his grandmother that he found them. So when my h does talk about the past, it must have been so bad because he says if he ever went back this time he would be dead.

I am still very curious, but because of the pain it causes H I have let it die. It still isnt easy.

I see no point in going backwards life is short. I look at this journey I am on as creating good memories for all of our futures.
Loretta