So, I did it - no not IT. Prom day is still months away, i presume
I snooped. It has been months (probably August) since I actually snooped my H's cell phone or his email account. Last night H didn't call me on his way home from work. He is very good about calling the minute he leaves work (usually between 5:10 and 5:20). By 5:25 I still hadn't heard from him. I called his cell but it was off. Panic set in. Within 5 minutes I was into his email address, bank account, and cell phone records. Yuck. I was obsessed. There I was panic stricken and insecure all over again. And I hated it. I let that girl go months ago and one night of H not calling and I took a downward spiral. Yuck. The good thing? I found nothing. Absolutely nothing. He's clean as a whistle. And he walked through the door at 5:30 - his cell phone was dead, he needed to recharge it. He apologized for not calling and not planning better. I didn't mention my panic attack, just welcomed him home with a hug and kiss. I don't want to live my life panicking every time he doesn't do something he says he's going to.
Any words of advice of how to let this stuff go? Or do I just wait it out? Does it get better with time? I don't want to be paranoid. I don't want to worry about it.
Me: 34 H: 39 M: 7 yrs H A 12/05-8/07
If what you say surprises me, I must have been assuming something else was true. - M. Wheatley
