when you have to ask for what you want

[sage]

here's another thought I keep having and it drives me in circles.

when things are well and I am happy with the r and my "family" I start to feel bad for ow.

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I just feel bad for her and her family...but then when I feel that way I start to say to myself..stop it LL..she's getting what she deserves..she's gonna learn the hard way what a selfish little brat she really is..why do you even think of helping her family? she cared little if at all for yours.

LL --

I've been listening to some audiotapes in my car ("Awakening Compassion") because I've found myself mired in anger at ow and h. I've thought of you a few times during them -- mainly because I see us going through similar cycles in our sitchs.

I think your compassion for ow and her family is truly giving and wonderful. 'course, I don't think you need to "do" anything with it (like give her a copy of DR or anything! -- do you?). If you're at all interested in meditation or "that kind of stuff" you could "send" her courage and clarity or whatever feels right.

I don't think you need to talk yourself out of feeling empathy for what she and her h are going thru. I think it's of tremendous value to your healing process!

Sage