I just got the phone with my H. He called me. Wanted to find out what time he should take the kids to the party on Sat. While talking (friendly, bubbly etc, etc as Michelle says) he mentioned the party tonight. Asked If I was going and I told him, I was, but late. He said " well, I can't, I really can't go, I am so tired, it's been crazy with my job lately(he just became chief editor), I can't go...". I said, "yes you do sound tired, take care of yourself and rest"... So, I don't have to think about it any longer. I got my answer from him. I immediately confirmed I am going anyway and to be honest I feel more confident I WILL have a great time tonight.
Oh, and something else, the kids therapist (they had a session with her last night) she told me that both our kids told her (separately) that their hearts are not sad anymore because "Daddy told them last Sunday that he is coming back home, only not when". I did not believe it, for me it's obviously a lie they came up with, since they are trying to manipulate us (poor things) but she said the weird thing is that they both said the same thing. She is going to talk to him and tell him that if he did say so to them that is a very stupid thing to do since it can be very traumatic. She'll call afterwards and tell me what he said. I don't think he would do such a stupid thing. But of cource, I don't consider him "normal" anymore. Recent past has proven to me he is full of suprises...
I refuse to let my negativism get hold of me although as I said before, these last few days I have been feeling extremely lonely. I'll try to go back to my previous nirvana state of mind.
