Quote: I just don't know what h wants...I don't know what to do with these feelings anymore..
I've been struggling with the same thing lately. It seems like our Ses' attention comes in waves, and is inconsistent. One day we get X, Y, and Z, then the next day nothing. Why? Hell if I know, but I'm trying to figure it out. Is it me and my insecurities? Is it my W? It's almost like they give a lot one day, tease us with "what could be," then go back to being the way they normally are. I find it frustrating and no matter how many times I tell my W that it's important I get this and it's important that I get that, it doesn't matter...it's on her terms and her terms only.
So why do we torture ourselves, LL? Is their behavior any different than it was three years ago when things were "normal?" Is it us wanting to have something more than what we've ever had, but our Ses are not coming to the party? Perhaps it's a mixture of all of these things. Not only do we have to get over A, but we have to settle for an inferior R until they pull their heads out of their arses and get with the program... Ugh!
I can only hope that over time, with our guidance, that they will come to a place we are. We've had more time to get our head straight. We've read more books, taken more time to apply certain techniques. In a sense, they are babes to what we understand. I think, more than anything, it goes back to patience. Yeah...I know what you're thinking. I'm sick of hearing that too...
