"I feel myself going back into my shell. When things first started happening, I felt I could stretch out, and see beyond the horizon. Now I feel myself, even if its true or not, retreating back to old habits. I feel myself just wanting to watch t.v. and hangaround the house all day. I didnt want to do that as much anymore (but I still enjoy being lazy as [censored]) I wanna go out and do things. I wanna travel eventually, even just going to see a movie still counts. But as W says, "I need to get my ass to work and get some money." SO, work shall have to be a big part off my life, cause money has a way of being a part of everything now adays. This sucks, I wanna be a bum, I just wanna get though life sometimes, I dont ask for much, food, water, shelter, and good friends and family. I just dont want to get caught up in expensive stuff and superficial lifestyles. I want a simple life, and a simple big screen t.v. with all the new gaming consoles and a few great games to play, and I'm good.... I'm good... I'm easy... not hard to pleas-y.."
Ironic, because what we had was a nice simple life. We had an amazing family, a comfortable apartment, good jobs, great friends and yes- even a simple big screen. He left us, and now that's what he wants. GO figure.
Any thoughts?
*dated at age 12- 15 (me) and age 13-16 (him) *reunited at age 19 (me) and age 20 (him) *me 23, H 25 *married 3 1/2 years, 1 d *dropped ILYBINILWY bomb on 12/19/07 *moved out same day, PA with OW confirmed
