H decided to come home to you and family. He bought you forsythia bushes. He brought home Reese's pieces. He gave you a hug. He works hard for you.
Slowly he's coming back. I can't say I blame you for wanting more but accept for now what you do get.
I hope I didn't set you off with my comments about OW and wanting to call her H yesterday.
Like you said to me, what difference will it make if you know? Letting your imagination go will only make you feel insecure and that's lousy.
LL, you deserve so much more. You have been a wonderful and forgiving wife. H will eventually see it once he comes out of the fog he's in. It's easy for me to suggest you give him time but I think you'll hit the jackpot if you do.