I got them from snooping in his phone last night. He left the phone in his car and let me use his car to take the babysitter home. I was surprised to find he'd left it there...he hasn't left it sitting around for a long time.
After I read his text messages and found one from his current g/f saying she loves him *puke*, and seeing that he has a picture of her on his phone rather than our daughter and then receiving a call from the chick he got pregnant who refused to tell me why she was calling him and then seeing a message (just friendly) from another ex g/f I recently found out about I just went ballistic on him. He still told me he loves me and wants to be with me and said that he left the phone there on purpose for me to look at. I don't know if he meant to trap me or if it's his weird way of letting me see what he's been up to.
Man...am I stupid for even thinking about trying to get this marriage back on track...was it ever on track? Should I have never married him? Am I punishing myself by persisting in something I should have let go a long time ago because I didn't think I was worth more and therefore put up with less than stellar behaviour and put up with less than the compatibility that I yearn for?
