I have been working some absolutely insane hours this week plus continuing to nurse my cold. I HATE that feeling of never getting caught up which is where I'm at with work right now.. could probably work 48 hours straight and still not be there. Tonight I finally just left - told my boss I'm burning out and FAST and I needed to go. He was cool with it (he's getting pretty burned out himself I think). Almost time to ask for a raise I think though... They can't afford to lose me right now!
ST I'm sure you're right on the nightmares. In fact we're right around the 1 year mark since H moved out last year (wow that's hard to believe!). So I know that's been weighing on me a bit.
I am determined to do the BFL thing and do it all the way. I did great with it when I committed to it 100% - when I tried to do it halfway it was waayyyy too easy to not do it at all, unfortunately. Next challenge starts 2/11 so I will start by then for sure - current goal is next Monday, if my cold's gone by then.
cliffy Long time no see!!! Thanks for stopping by. I saw you updated your thread too, will have to go see what's up. Grandma is actually improving now that my aunt's practically force feeding her.. double edged sword but it's great that she's feeling better. She'll even talk to people on the phone now.
H You're not kidding.. I am losin' it at work this week. Cold seems to finally be turning the corner thank goodness.
------------------------------- So some quick journaling...
Sitch wise, things with H seem to be improving. At least I hope I'm not imagining things. All this week he has been calling me to tell me things.. nothing important but for example when I got stuck at work til 9 last night, he had called to tell me to hurry home so I could see something he'd done on his race car. He was like a kid showing me all the new work he'd done - he did a fantastic job on it!! I of course made sure to tell him that and even noticed some details he didn't point out, he seemed excited about that. He's been a lot more attentive towards me, too.
As for me.. well work insanity aside, things are going pretty good. Tomorrow night there's a meetup that I want to go to - appetizers and dancing, same place I went awhile back with another group. The only problem is there is this TOTALLY creepy guy going. He was at the piano meetup and he kept asking me out (apparently "No," "No, I'm not interested," "No, I'm married and trying to work things out with my H," "NO" "NO" and oh yeah "NO!!!" did not come across clearly enough). Anyway... he sent me this totally icky email today (through the site - NO he doesn't have my personal info). It says "Hey sexy mama get your butt out there dancing cuz I will be there!" Ew. That would be the downside of meetup, it makes it awfully easy for people to know where you'll be when.
Anyway.. still debating on that. If I don't do that I may hit a movie or something low key like that.
Saturday night is my cooking club - Cajun theme this time. I'm trying out a new recipe that I found tonight for Cajun Roasted Potatoes - hopefully they are good! If not, back to the drawing board. Looking forward to this a lot. This is the one that meets monthly and I'm getting to really know some of the people more, so that's been great.
And in further meetup news, I am hosting a meetup.. AT MY HOUSE!! I am freaking out a little bit but I think it will be fun, too. I am either insane or truly getting out of my shell more. What happened is there was an "International Wine and Cheese Tasting" party at someone else's house and they had to cancel last minute. The organizer was looking for a new place to host it (she's in an apartment so couldn't do it), and on a total whim I said I'd do it. I didn't even ask H first!! Need to figure out now how to tell him actually. I think he'll be fine with it, but it's weird for me to do that without asking first. (and yes he's invited if he wants... will be interesting to see if he decides to stay)
Everyone's supposed to bring a wine and/or cheese from a different country. It should be fun but I'm a little freaked out that I did it!! Everyone is at least a "friend of a friend" (except for Mr. Creepy who suddenly RSVP'd yes when it switched to my house. YUCK, will have to figure something out w/the organizer on that one).
Is it a TRUE 180 if you even surprise the heck out of yourself???
I'm excited though, I think it will be a lot of fun. I invited more people that I know too - would like to get it to at least MOSTLY people I know.
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They can't afford to lose me right now!
What happened is there was an "International Wine and Cheese Tasting" party at someone else's house and they had to cancel last minute. The organizer was looking for a new place to host it (she's in an apartment so couldn't do it), and on a total whim I said I'd do it. I didn't even ask H first!! Need to figure out now how to tell him actually. I think he'll be fine with it, but it's weird for me to do that without asking first. (and yes he's invited if he wants... will be interesting to see if he decides to stay)