no I am not misserable with h..I am happy with h...could I be happier...YES!! is h capable of giving me what I want?? YES...does h choose to give me what I want...only when it's convenient to him!
Ain't nobody here on piecing that can't relate to this (well...let me speak for myself -- I can sure relate to this). It's awesome to have the WAS back home...and eventually you get to the point where there sheer presence isn't enough...gotta be more there.
So..in true DB'ing fashion...I'm wondering about how you want to get what you want...in other words, it seems like what you guys have been doing isn't getting you what you want...what DOES work? What DOESN'T? What could you be doing differently?
Quote: amazing how when h first came home he was a different man...he was attentive to my needs...we played darts at his initiation, I got massages, I got funny phone calls telling me what song was on the radio, I was walked to the door when I went out and given a kiss that begged me to stay home,
Is there a clue here? If you think back to that time, what was different? Was it truly just H. grateful to be home? Was it you grateful that he was home? What else was different?
Quote: I'm tired of not feeling good enough for h. I'm tired of feeling unatractive around h. I'm tired of feeling like maybe h should have stayed away and persued his life with little miss cancer. I'm tired of asking for what I want and being met with...so youre not happy, so what I'm doing isn't enough, so we're back to the way it was before...no matter what I do it's just not enough for you.
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Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
