Mopsey, I hope that you are feeling better soon. Sounds like stress and maybe a bug going around caught up w/you.
There's no telling what is going on w/your h right now. However, I am going to offer up a suggestion--accept him for who is right now. Accept all of the kind gestures for what they are and know that somewhere deep down, he does still care for you. None of us can say on what level that caring is right now, but it means an awful lot to him to be there for you. Trust God and allow him to do all of the work to help your h along his journey.
Take a break from mlc and take care of yourself for a change. If he offers to help in any way, accept his offers and allow him to help you. He needs to know that you are there and still need him to help once in a while. You are very lucky that he still wants to assist in many ways.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
