something interesting about yesterday....as I said my parents divorced over 5 years ago...the holidays and some other occasions always get me down...h doens't fully understand the pain and emptiness I feel in regard to my family because he himself has never faced it. he has in past years always pointed out the we now have our family...that we will create within our family those memories and I should look back and be thankful for the family I did have that so many others didn't (meaning the sunday dinners and time spent together not just meaning having a family)
now when h offers that comfort or solace of realizing we have our own family now I am still saddend because that family was almost taken away as well and at times I will admit I still fear it being taken away.
I just want peace...do I already have it within reach but am afraid to grab hold of it??
I dunno...
so tonight we have our first c session together and this may be something I will mention...I don't know if it is a good thing to bring up or not..well it's either that or the lack of sex issue...I dunno...me in a room with two men talking about how I want more sex?? that might not go over to well. ha ha ha
