thanks as usual for all your support!! I think I'll soon have the power to click my heals and head home!!
met last night with some local dbrs and as usual had a great time!!
h has been working very hard in the yard lately...yesterday I did a ton of work out there to help him out before he got home...oh the blisters... I had to hit the 24hr walmart last night to get some easter stuff..so I didn't get home til 2am...woke h from the couch and went up to bed..I'll admit that before I did I snooped his cell phone and saw two non calls...I always think this is an attempt to cover up a call made to ow...maybe I should just tell myself it's a misdial..or better yet maybe I should just not look at all.
got to bed h again in his corner and me in mine..I didn't like it much and started to feel a bit uneasy...tried to tell myself everything is ok...and then h moved over and put his arm around me...I could have cried...I thanked him..and peacfully fell asleep (but not before my mind wandered thinking ya right this is just a cover up ugh the damn neg thoughts) anyway..h just called...what a difference in the calls...h always did call during the day but the converstions were empty now they still contain the same what time he'll be home etc..but there's more to it...more energy...more thoughts...and more things about home.
nice weather is comming and we have an issue with one of the kids in the neighborhood..let's just say he's a wonderer..always out alone..he's older now so that isn't so much the issue as he is now old enough to be out alone...but the kid has little respect and hardly any manners..will show up here and ask for food or a drink...tell me he's starving...(if I've run out of something he's had here before that he's requesting...he'll reply with...well you'll have to get some, this kid is to old to be so rude!!) isn't always nice to our son...annoys the crap out of me...it seems they will be moving maybe may maybe june..I feel bad about the way I feel about this kid...but ugh!!! anyway...h has spent some time in working in the yard while the kids are all playing and has the same feelings toward this kid...I don't like feeling this way about a child..or anyone for that matter..but there's little I can do about it.
