I don't know why...but last night when we got into bed (which was I think 2am..we fell asleep on the couches again) the fear came over me...what if h isn't happy...what if h get's tired of trying...why is h on the other side of the bed (each of us curled up but in opposite directions) the fear that h might leave again came over me...I let it go...telling myself..it really wont matter if he leaves again I'll be ok. but I didn't like the fact that the fear came...had to tell myself..so what if he's facing the other way...we were half asleep anyway.
