I learned something very simple in looking at the moon last night...it had a strage glow, a glowing ring around it amognt the overcast of the night...h and I were on the deck once I arrived home from my annoying journey 30 miles away to get the taxes to the post office..(h waited till last minute I offered to go) I looked up and said the moon looks cool...it doesn't usually have a ring around it like that...h said "it's overcast" I then said to h...the moon just taught me something...when you analyze something...you appreciate it's wonder less. in one minute I was enjoying the wonder of the sky and the moons strange glow...when I looked at it knowing why it looked the way it did it was a bit less amazing.
what did I learn??
stop analyzing h and just be amazed at all that he does for us.
btw..the tree scare...it's not a wonder that h wasn't overly comforting...I helped take down a tree...h has been taking down several over the past few weeks...to him it's no big deal. last evening I helped take down two more...and before each one..h mapped out my exit route and asked if I was ok...so h didn't run over and hug me after the trees fell..big deal...after the last one...I ran over to son and he ran to me so I got my hug...so what if it was from little arms instead of big ones.
I need to give h a break...I need to give h the benefit of the doubt...I need to see h for who he is and stop thinking he's some manipulative jerk like so many of the wah's I read about here. I feel bad for those women but that just isn't my h and I'm not naive or ignorant to think so.
my h is home...and it IS for real...as long as I believe it is!!
