Journaling: Yesterday things caught up with me. I woke up not feeling great went to work...and came home early. When H showed up to see d12 after school he was suprised to see me.
I was laying down and he came in to be with me for a bit. Kept asking if he could do anything for me or get anything for me....but I was ok. Thanked him...but was ok. He seemed concerned (although did check his phone...incoming tm...probably MOW), but whatever.
I slept most of the afternoon and into the early morning. I did get a tm from him around saying he hoped i was feeling better. I was too tired to respond.
I was on the computer in around 2 am when he sent me a tm telling me he was thinking about me and hoped I was ok. We tm'd for a bit and he called to see if I was ok. He couldn't sleep. Said it was stress and restlessness. Whatever. This is the life you left me for (thought to myself).
I told him i was working through lunch today and he offered to bring me something from the restaurant since he was delivering today. He did come by a little while ago with soup and a sandwich. Whatever....zero expectations.
So, just keeping track of my peaks and valleys. Not sure where H head is or heart. Don't know if this is progress or if he wants something from me. Guess God will let me know in time.
