OK, if you are thinking about how you went wrong every waking minute, do some serious thought replacement exercises. It's not good for you to be thinking that much! We should also be careful about thinking we can "make" anyone else happy. There are way too many variables that come into play to conclude that we, as S's, are the sole reason for our partners disatisfaction. Could we have done things differently? Of course, but the good news is we still can. It's not over till it's over, so don't think it to death, get on with living a full and joyful life. Btw, I think you're doing great Minkerman!