Had a friend from out of state come by yesterday. He really tore me down. I haven't talked to but a few people, that want to talk to me, about current sitch. I really do not talk to anyone else about it and am just myself. But he blasted me like I had been ruining their world constantly about it. Tore me down, really made me feel like I wasn't detaching well, ruined my PMA and it really hurt. And oddly, made me feel like I have less of chance despite my desire to reconcile. Just so negative. Should have told him to leave.
I sure would like to know what to do. She said she would like to talk on the phone someday about her day, blah blah...she is so down right now. I know that until she gets out of funk nothing will change. Seems like after a 2.5 hour talk there has to be at least a glimmer of hope. After 11 years of marriage +4 more dating and a 5D, I just wish I could get a change and I do not know what to do.
