Sweetie, you are just engaging in a lot of negative self talk. It will do you no good. Let's say you are right and he doesn't find you attractive BUT he committed to being monogamous with you for life. Dontcha think he bears some responsibility to address that with you? Don't you think he owes you the basic courtesy of saying - hey hon, this isn't working, let's see how we can improve things. Getting a hysterectomy is probably messing with your head a bit - relax, give yourself time to heal physically and mentally and then get your head on straight. If that means therapy for yourself - Do it! If it means getting a makeover so you find your groove - do it. Join a gym, a book club, a poker club, a running club - whatever. But first, heal.
