The thing that is really getting my goat right now is that my W is in that stupid fog and can't see ANYTHING else. I can be strong for me and give her the time she needs to decide, but when I think about what she is almost about to do to our 3 kids.... I am reading all kinds of stats and facts about what happens to kids in a D. Plain and simple, I don't want that for the kids. They are GREAT kids and don't deserve to have a selfish parent screw them up for their lifetime.
I want to tell or share these facts and stats about kids of D with my W. But I don't think she would even be able to comprehend what I am saying because she is drunk on this EA/PA. Please let this A fog lift soon.
I am pretty sure the OM is "deciding" right now what his next move is. I am pretty sure he has been talking to his confidants/friends/family about his feelings. I would say with 99% certainty that he is willing to leave his W and 2 YOUNG kids. I think he is about to make that happen in the next week or two.
I will tell you what, every day that goes by that this A continues, it pushes my willingness to explore forgiveness further and further away. Not saying I will feel that way 5 minutes from now, but that is how I feel right now.
