Nikki, I have the issue with my H not wearing his wedding ring either. It makes me crazy! I am not sure what the point of that is. He told me that he does not need a ring to tell him that he is married. He says that he knows he is married. I asked him, then why don't you wear your ring. His answer is "I don't know." If I had a dollar for every time I have heard that over the last few months, I'ld be rich!
I honesty do not know at this point what my future holds. I think about it constantly. From the second I open my eyes in the morning until I fall asleep at night, H is on my mind. I guess I am trying not to think about the future right now. I take one day at a time, hour by hour. I get through by having a strong faith in God and in my ability to be a strong and independent woman. I am lucky that I have a very supportive family. My Mom has been there for me every step of the way since this started. I lean on her a lot. I am very afraid of the future and what my life will be like without H. It is very scary to think that all of the plans I had for my life are out the window.
I live in southern Bergen County NJ. I see the empty space in the skyline every day where the Twin Towers used to be. My Dad is a firefighter in Jersey City and was there on that horrific day just like your husband was, but my Dad arrived after the towers fell. I am sure that seeing that trama had something to do with your H's change in behavior. Has he ever had counseling for that? My H outright refuses any kind of marriage counseling, but he did have an appt with our priest this week. I am not sure exactly when it is/was. I guess I will find out soon enough.
