Man it is hard to see if that dim dim light at the end of a tunnel is the sun or a train. I am wavering emotionally every freaking minute. One minute I am strong as can be. Then the next minute I read something they say to each other and I just want the pain to be over. I AM willing to fight for this, but this is the toughest fight ever. I am competing with a fantasy world. I am competing with teenage-like love. I only have reality on my side. I know my W isn't into reality these days. How could she even think about the big D with everything we have at stake? It makes NO sense. She is out of her mind and she has to come back to earth. I realize I can't bring her back down. But I am afraid if she isn't grounded soon, she and the OM are going to make the biggest mistakes of her lives.
It helps to have an outlet to get these feelings out. But it just is soooooo unfair....... bad things happening to good people.
