Yeah, that's what I've decided to do. I don't think there's any reason to tell him until he gets home. I hate that I even considered not telling him at all. I guess that's just one of those "after affects" of our whole D sitch. The "what if's" -- what if he decides to get a D later and uses it against me. What if THAT is something that makes him want to D me again?
Of course, I'm VERY scared right now, however, I do know in my heart & mind (somewhere) that of course I'll be fine and better in the long run. I noticed more & more the meds affecting my moods. I think that's one of the biggest reasons I've been in this funk for so long. Not only am I down b/c I know I'm an addict and need to get off of them, but they have more & more begun affecting my moods in a "downer" way. They also seem to make me kind of an "angry" person -- not terribly bad, but I've still noticed it.
Sorry to hear you are going through this. I dislike hydrocodone intensely, it's extremely addictive and people usually just slide into it. Be prepared for, in no particular order:
# intense cravings for the drug # irritability # nausea or vomiting # muscle aches # runny nose or eyes # dilated pupils # sweating # diarrhea # yawning # fevers # chills # inability to sleep # depression
The nice thing about opioids is that withdrawal is usually not life-threatening. You'll feel like crap, but it won't kill you. Benzodiazepins and other friendly substances that can cause seizures can't be quit cold turkey. Hydrocodone can. But pretty it ain't. If there's a way to talk to your doctor and taper it it might be easier on you. That's up to you.
