Yeah, that's what I've decided to do. I don't think there's any reason to tell him until he gets home. I hate that I even considered not telling him at all. I guess that's just one of those "after affects" of our whole D sitch. The "what if's" -- what if he decides to get a D later and uses it against me. What if THAT is something that makes him want to D me again?

Of course, I'm VERY scared right now, however, I do know in my heart & mind (somewhere) that of course I'll be fine and better in the long run. I noticed more & more the meds affecting my moods. I think that's one of the biggest reasons I've been in this funk for so long. Not only am I down b/c I know I'm an addict and need to get off of them, but they have more & more begun affecting my moods in a "downer" way. They also seem to make me kind of an "angry" person -- not terribly bad, but I've still noticed it.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10