Darn my weak resolve

H called a while ago. I was actually asleep on the couch (I was awake all night) with S5 on the floor resting by his puke bucket--poor baby!--so I answered before I remembered I wasn't speaking to him.

H asked if it was okay for him to go on the formal interview tomorrow afternoon. Even though he basically has the job I think, from the phone interview, he is going up in person to check out the location of the company in Omaha and meet the boss face-to-face. Yesterday in my anger at him not coming home I told him that Thursday was his day with the kids on the visitation schedule.

I said, I was pretty upset with you yesterday. But of course I want you to go on the interview. I really hope you get the job and I really hope you enjoy living back home (I made no mention of me). Then he tells me he will be home tonight, and tomorrow before the interview, and he is taking Friday off to move around some of the hay he still needs to deliver to Iowa.

Didn't I tell him I wanted him to move in with a buddy and leave me alone? That I couldn't handle his coming and going whenever he wanted with no explanation?

So I don't know if I should have said something but I didn't. We do have a lot to talk about so I guess it is okay if he comes home tonight. But once the kids are asleep he better be in a talking mood or I am telling him again to move out. As long as he is waffling and doesn't know what he is doing I think it is easier not to have to see him every night, or as it went last night to NOT see him.....


Me-35

Together: 18 yrs
M-12.5 yrs
S-8
D-4
D'd: Feb. 2010

The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save. --Zeph. 3:17