My H is gone 2,5 months now. Yesterday and today I was feeling a bit low although nothing bad happened. On the contrary, it seems that after unconciously practicing DB for the last 1,2 month there have been some positive things happening at the moment.
The reason I was feeling down, I think, was because I come to accept the fact that I do not need him as I thought I did. And if at some point I give up, then what?
I didn't get to see him much when he was here. He is a journalist and works till late at night and I work office hours. My routine didn't change much. He is not an upbeat person, everything was planned by me. But still... It's not the activities I think we miss, it's the feeling of belonging... knowing they were there. For them I believe, it's the most obvious thing they could change, no soul searching, no wondering. But they do see in the end what the truth is. For some (of them-not us) it will be too late.
Take care, hope you don't mind me intruding like this,
